Monday, February 1, 2010

It was, as if, yesterday..

31 January, 2009 06:30 PM
“It isn’t the same; the breeze that is shivering me in the month of February in Jaipur. As I am standing in front of a large dressing mirror in the room that practically belongs to me after my marriage, I kept thinking about what’s going on here. Is it the atmospheric chillness that is making me weak or the tepid environment around me that is making me tense? I know it is not the best time to think about why and how, but still, are these events so captive that I am so worried about?”
All of the sudden a loud voice intruded my engrossing thoughts and I quickly lift up my maroon ‘pyjama’ while holding my long and heavy ‘sherwani’ with one hand as I was sitting in front of the large dressing mirror…
Probably this was my last chance to be with myself completely, I wondered. The ‘sherwani’ wasn’t light as it looked from a distance during my trials at showroom, and my fever-ridden body was making me fragile from inside. Anyways the noble idea of getting married kept me motivated and energetic. As I had completed my ‘self’ make-up and was progressing towards the assembly area, I could hear the chants of numerous guests that were slowly evolving into loudness. Maybe they were mixed with music played by the band outside. Hundreds of people looked like millions of designer molecules in front of me and all discussing the same topic. All of a sudden, oxygen level dropped to a lower level and I was looking for holding somebody that could regain my strength.
Oh my God, I am going to get married now..

31 January, 2010
It’s been a year that we have been together and truly speaking, still, we have no guts to hear that we have completed one year of our marriage. The year had been so engrossing and action-packed that had left no time for us to think about what had really happened exactly a year ago. Seriously time truly flies. We pinch ourselves when someone congratulates us with anniversary wishes. These ears are still not adaptable to these wishes except the birthday ones. I am sure that we have evolved better in this one year than before. However it doesn’t prove well after looking at us, but still I can feel the differences. The priorities have changed and the concentration has been strong. Now I have someone to look upon. I can no more drive my bike recklessly on roads. I have no more time to introspect and look for my solutions alone.
Marriage is a good institution that makes you learn what you have been kept aloof for a long time. It makes you feel like a master balancing over a thin rope. Sacrifices and compromises automatically flow in your blood. As I was writing this blog, I kept reminded myself about many things that got untangled during my married days. On one hand, many things have become straight forward and on other hand many of them have become complicated. I can not resolve these amazing complicated puzzles but I feel lucky enough to know their worth. Priorities have certainly changed over the time. Now I feel more pleasure when she enjoys her work and dedication. No two hands can be equally active at same time; it’s very rare, but true. And this was the first lesson that I had learnt after my marriage. Not only me, I guess, marriage makes our family complete and bigger than before. Now we have more reasons to celebrate and more opportunities to share. What else changes do we require in a stale nomadic life?
In the end, all I want to say to my wife is, “I have thoroughly enjoyed the time we had spend together. Certainly there were hiccups in the last one year, some were realized and some weren’t; but still we overcame all of them without much anxiety. Till now our journey of life had been smooth and cozy, but I am sure, with our relationship we can face any fears of life with strong determination. I may be rude, I may be soft, and I may depict many other peculiar moods throughout, but all I can guarantee you is, these are all short-lived. I am sure you had never realized, what positive changes you had introduced in my life, but to me, it matters a lot.
Just continue this relation with your sparkling smile…Love you forever